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dear diary,
There is so much going on. Mark and Leah are officially dating. I
think they mig ht be in love, like Sam and Emily. Shay is in high
school, which sounds boring to me. I know I will haveto go there
eventually, but for now, preschool is fun.Grandma Renee is moving
back to Forks when she has her baby. Grandpa Charlie and Sue are
getting married in the spring, when it is warmer. Mommy and daddy keep
talking about moving, but always when I am supposed to be asleep. I
hope we don't. Aunt Alice wants to take me to on a trip to Paris this
summer. I can't move without her. And Jake... I don't know how to
describe it except I can't imagine living without him. I am careful
not to think about it in front of daddy, but I think he knows that I
know. I also think he knows how I feel about Jake. It stinks being too
smart and feeling emotions you aren't supposed to feel for years.
That's the disadvantage of being a half-vampire though. You mature too
fast. Jake tells me not to worry about it...but how do I do that? How
to I not worry about blowing our covers when I look 4 and act 14? He
tells me that if they didn't trust me, I wouldn't be going anywhere. I
just have to trust him, even though I don't trust myself. Grandpa
Carlisle told me the most important thing is to act my age. Play a lot
and have fun. Don't use too big of words, make mistakes some times.
But above all, be myself as much as possible. It might be hard growing
up half monster, as daddy puts it, but I wouldn't have it any other
way. Now I haveto go to school. Write more soon.
<3 Renesmee Carlie Cullen <3
There is so much going on. Mark and Leah are officially dating. I
think they mig ht be in love, like Sam and Emily. Shay is in high
school, which sounds boring to me. I know I will haveto go there
eventually, but for now, preschool is fun.Grandma Renee is moving
back to Forks when she has her baby. Grandpa Charlie and Sue are
getting married in the spring, when it is warmer. Mommy and daddy keep
talking about moving, but always when I am supposed to be asleep. I
hope we don't. Aunt Alice wants to take me to on a trip to Paris this
summer. I can't move without her. And Jake... I don't know how to
describe it except I can't imagine living without him. I am careful
not to think about it in front of daddy, but I think he knows that I
know. I also think he knows how I feel about Jake. It stinks being too
smart and feeling emotions you aren't supposed to feel for years.
That's the disadvantage of being a half-vampire though. You mature too
fast. Jake tells me not to worry about it...but how do I do that? How
to I not worry about blowing our covers when I look 4 and act 14? He
tells me that if they didn't trust me, I wouldn't be going anywhere. I
just have to trust him, even though I don't trust myself. Grandpa
Carlisle told me the most important thing is to act my age. Play a lot
and have fun. Don't use too big of words, make mistakes some times.
But above all, be myself as much as possible. It might be hard growing
up half monster, as daddy puts it, but I wouldn't have it any other
way. Now I haveto go to school. Write more soon.
<3 Renesmee Carlie Cullen <3
