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I had a vision of a brown haired girl who would solve everyone’s problems. I knew even before I got the call from Paddy that she had arrived. I could sense it. I told Jordan that if she would be willing to be patient that she would have her baby and she would not have to move out. She looked at me puzzled and in my head asked how I could be so sure and to explain myself. She obviously hadn’t seen what I had. I smiled at her and said in her mind “Do you trust me?” she looked at me hard for a minute and I could hear her thoughts raging through her mind. She was wondering what I was up to. How I could possibly solve the puzzle of her having a human baby and still be able to live in our family home without all the blood thirsty vampires queuing up to drain her baby. I felt a shudder run through her as her decision formed in her mind and she nodded once but held herself tightly. “All will be revealed shortly.” I said in her head again. I know that she was hurt that I wouldn’t confide my thoughts in her. She felt that I didn’t trust her. That I was blocking my thoughts from her, personally. “I’m blocking because of Edward Cullen not you Jordan.” she acquiesced then and with a shrug of her shoulders she muttered “Fine.” I turned then and left the house. I knew that she was aware I’d gone and that she was struggling not to follow me. I thanked her in my mind and felt her release me as she went and found Josh who obliterated all other thoughts from her mind with a passionate kiss. I shut out her mind then and ran swiftly to Paddy’s house. The wind picked up and it had begun to rain. I heard her thoughts as I entered the house. Having Edward nearby provided me with mind reading from a distance. She was nervous and worried about having to stay hidden from her mom, who wanted her to abort her baby. I was right; it was this girl who would let Jordan have her baby. I was sorry that she would not live long enough to see her baby’s eyes. I could smell something wrong with her blood. I saw Paddy then and he looked happy and relaxed in a way I’d not seen since Seamus was alive. He’d already accepted her into his and Kalib’s lives. I could hear her heart shuddering in her chest as she overheard our conversation. When she came out and stared at me with her big beautiful eyes I noted how pretty she was and I noted how she was staring at me, taking in my youth and wondering how I could be so young and married! Or around for years helping Paddy. I smiled when she assumed that I must have been here helping as a kid. The fact that I was over a century old to her 16 years, it caused me to grin. I was thrilled when she agreed to stay to ‘help’ Paddy for me. She looked at me in wonder, finding it hard not to stare at me and stopped in shock when I guessed her shoe size and upon quizzing looked at me in surprise when I told her that guessing was something I’d developed over the years. She was wondering what I meant as I looked to be about 15 or 16 myself. In fact, I was 15 when I was turned. I knew by the strength of the second heartbeat that she was about 2 months pregnant, mind you; my experience in Mary’s pregnancy is all I had to base my knowledge on. I needed to go and prepare for her future of living with Paddy and intended to make her next few months alive to be happy times and for her to know that her babe will be cherished and adored. I told her I would return with clothes for her in the morning. In the meantime, I went home and asked Alec to come with me that I needed to hunt. Things had kind of calmed down concerning Edward Cullen since Jordan had stood up to him. She reminded him of Alice, not afraid to defend herself. He felt it would be safe for him to leave the house and come with me. Jordan eyed me as I came in the door and rushed to Alec’s side. I looked around me and noticed the couples in house together in various groups. Jordan kept her eye on me and I knew I’d have to confide in her before she erupted at me and we’d fight again. I hated fighting with anyone. I‘m a peaceful person as a rule but I hate injustices. Another vision came to me then and I had to deaden my senses, as there were too many perceptive vampires in the room. Alec felt me stiffen in his arms and hugged me to him more tightly.
“Are you ok?” he whispered in my ear. I nodded and said
“C’mon” in his ear. With his arms still, tight around my shoulders he escorted me outside and we ran then until I could run no more. I had to fess up and be honest with him.
“Oh Alec,” I said as I stopped and pulling him into my arms. If I could cry I’d be sobbing my heart out, I suddenly felt overwhelmed with what I was going to say. He looked at me, his newly amber coloured eyes full of concern.
“Alec” I said breathlessly again.
“What is it love, what’s wrong, you’re awfully tense, it’s not like you.”
I couldn’t hear his thoughts we were too far away from any vampire with gifts and I felt like I was suffocating. I stared into his eyes and forced myself to relax and then I began to speak softly about everything. From Jordan’s wish to have a baby, to her admission to her mother about her reason for her hasty marriage, that she was pregnant, to how I felt about her yearning to be a mom to the fear of all the new veggies’ in the house and how unsafe it would be to bring a little human baby into our home and how I felt that the loss of Jordan would be when she left to keep the baby safe. I began to keen (moan softly in grief).
“Ssssh” he murmured it’ll be ok.”
“I’m not done,” I said.
“Oh” was his reply.
“No, I had a vision of a young pregnant girl who would come into our lives and change the way we live forever.”
Alec looked at me, puzzled for a minute and then he backed away from me and said
“You want the baby?” I was hurt at the way he pulled away from me and glad that I didn’t want the baby, but hurt too by his reaction even if I did want it.
“No, I don’t but Jordan and Josh do. Mind you, neither Josh nor Jordan is even aware the baby is in the area we are living in, in Paddy’s house.”
“How does she feel about giving up her baby to you? A vampire, a bloodsucker” he half shouted at me. I waited for him to get a little calmer before replying.
“She’s not got long to live Alec, she’s dying. Her blood smells funny.”
He stared at me speechless at first and then turned on his heel and took off running. I didn’t follow him. I needed to give him space to think this through. I sat down on a boulder nearby and thought about it myself. At what I was attempting to do. Was it worth it risking our happy ever afters for the sake of Jordon wishing to have a human child. Would it be wrong, the heartache of the various couples struggling to change their natural way of living to prevent themselves from killing the baby and drinking it’s blood. I began to shiver as the thoughts of the house disbanding and everyone leaving to live their own lives and honestly, it filled me with such sorrow. It was strange enough to be trying to live with a new family. Each couple with their own way of doing things. Like too many cooks spoiling the broth. It had amazed me that we were all trying to do the impossible as it was. Trying to change a lifetime of drinking human blood, to try and suffice themselves on animal blood. Paddy hadn’t visited and up until Lottie’s arrival had been the only human living in our valley. Yet as he was a friend of mine and out of respect for me the others had kept away from him in order to not have any urges even though I’m sure the scent of his blood must drive them to near insanity at times. No one had tried to kill him yet and of that, I was grateful. I didn’t see him as a human but as a friend. It was a question I decided I needed to ask all of them. I smelled Alec long before I saw him and strangely I could hear his thoughts of loving me and doing whatever he could to make me happy and if that meant sharing our home with a human child then he’d make himself do it. I didn’t want to make him feel uncomfortable in his own home. This was his new life too and I felt enraged with Jordan all of a sudden. Why had she brought this problem into our lives. Wasn’t she aware of what she was giving up when she asked Josh to be turned? Us vampires can’t have babies. What made her think she could have one? I began shaking again, panicked on how to solve the problem. Then I began to think of the bigger picture. How would she feel if she had this baby living with us and see us suffer from the thrum of the baby’s heartbeat. That was like watching the Cullens with Bella before she became a vampire. Difference was she was in love with Edward and he was with her and they were united, whereas Jordan wanted to bring in a baby, she has no connection with other that wanting to make josh happy. She should be talking to Josh about this not just lumping a baby on his lap and telling him it’s his.
Alec walked into the clearing then, looking dishevelled and subdued. I hated that I had done this to him. I was supposed to make everything better for him now that he was finally free of his masters. This was forcing his nature. Jordan trooped into the clearing behind him looking stubborn. Now I knew how I could read his mind but not hers, she’d blocked me and he’d made me unaware. Strange, that’s my gift.
“Why is Jordan here Alec?” I asked him.
“Because this problem we have is all her fault. Our home is supposed to be our refuge Faine and now thanks to her childish notions, I feel it’s become a prison once more. Faine I will do whatever you want me to do because I love you but I know the others will not be as willing as I am.” Jordan looked at me and hung her head but not before, I saw the determined look in her eyes. She wanted a baby and would move to the ends of the world to have one. It didn’t matter what we thought or how much it upset us. I was shocked. I never took her for a selfish person. I recoiled back from her. Alec stared at us, thinking that we were battling in our minds. It must be difficult for him to stand by and watch me being pulled apart.
“Jordan, there is a young girl named Lottie staying up at Paddy’s house. She is 16, pregnant and dying. She does not know she is dying but her blood smells wrong. You can have her baby once it’s born but then you’ll have to leave our home. I’ve given this a lot of thought and I think it’s very unfair of you to force us all into a situation for your selfish gain. Alec has said he will do what he can to make me happy but that’s unfair to him. He has finally gained his freedom and a chance for someone to love him in return and I don’t feel it’s fair to compromise him or anyone else in any way. I feel you want a baby and that’s totally fine, but once the baby is born you must take it and move away. I feel utterly gutted because I had a vision a while ago and saw you leaving and as much as it tears me apart, I have to let you go. It’s not fair to inflict this on anyone else, others may leave with you but this house has been my home for many years and it’s Alec’s now too. Did you ever stop to think how a human baby would affect the rest of us or did you just not care?” she glared at me and I knew she was hurt.
“What about when you said I wouldn’t have to move out?” she sneered at me.
“That was before I had a real chance to think about things away from everyone else’s thought and feelings.”
“Are you ok?” he whispered in my ear. I nodded and said
“C’mon” in his ear. With his arms still, tight around my shoulders he escorted me outside and we ran then until I could run no more. I had to fess up and be honest with him.
“Oh Alec,” I said as I stopped and pulling him into my arms. If I could cry I’d be sobbing my heart out, I suddenly felt overwhelmed with what I was going to say. He looked at me, his newly amber coloured eyes full of concern.
“Alec” I said breathlessly again.
“What is it love, what’s wrong, you’re awfully tense, it’s not like you.”
I couldn’t hear his thoughts we were too far away from any vampire with gifts and I felt like I was suffocating. I stared into his eyes and forced myself to relax and then I began to speak softly about everything. From Jordan’s wish to have a baby, to her admission to her mother about her reason for her hasty marriage, that she was pregnant, to how I felt about her yearning to be a mom to the fear of all the new veggies’ in the house and how unsafe it would be to bring a little human baby into our home and how I felt that the loss of Jordan would be when she left to keep the baby safe. I began to keen (moan softly in grief).
“Ssssh” he murmured it’ll be ok.”
“I’m not done,” I said.
“Oh” was his reply.
“No, I had a vision of a young pregnant girl who would come into our lives and change the way we live forever.”
Alec looked at me, puzzled for a minute and then he backed away from me and said
“You want the baby?” I was hurt at the way he pulled away from me and glad that I didn’t want the baby, but hurt too by his reaction even if I did want it.
“No, I don’t but Jordan and Josh do. Mind you, neither Josh nor Jordan is even aware the baby is in the area we are living in, in Paddy’s house.”
“How does she feel about giving up her baby to you? A vampire, a bloodsucker” he half shouted at me. I waited for him to get a little calmer before replying.
“She’s not got long to live Alec, she’s dying. Her blood smells funny.”
He stared at me speechless at first and then turned on his heel and took off running. I didn’t follow him. I needed to give him space to think this through. I sat down on a boulder nearby and thought about it myself. At what I was attempting to do. Was it worth it risking our happy ever afters for the sake of Jordon wishing to have a human child. Would it be wrong, the heartache of the various couples struggling to change their natural way of living to prevent themselves from killing the baby and drinking it’s blood. I began to shiver as the thoughts of the house disbanding and everyone leaving to live their own lives and honestly, it filled me with such sorrow. It was strange enough to be trying to live with a new family. Each couple with their own way of doing things. Like too many cooks spoiling the broth. It had amazed me that we were all trying to do the impossible as it was. Trying to change a lifetime of drinking human blood, to try and suffice themselves on animal blood. Paddy hadn’t visited and up until Lottie’s arrival had been the only human living in our valley. Yet as he was a friend of mine and out of respect for me the others had kept away from him in order to not have any urges even though I’m sure the scent of his blood must drive them to near insanity at times. No one had tried to kill him yet and of that, I was grateful. I didn’t see him as a human but as a friend. It was a question I decided I needed to ask all of them. I smelled Alec long before I saw him and strangely I could hear his thoughts of loving me and doing whatever he could to make me happy and if that meant sharing our home with a human child then he’d make himself do it. I didn’t want to make him feel uncomfortable in his own home. This was his new life too and I felt enraged with Jordan all of a sudden. Why had she brought this problem into our lives. Wasn’t she aware of what she was giving up when she asked Josh to be turned? Us vampires can’t have babies. What made her think she could have one? I began shaking again, panicked on how to solve the problem. Then I began to think of the bigger picture. How would she feel if she had this baby living with us and see us suffer from the thrum of the baby’s heartbeat. That was like watching the Cullens with Bella before she became a vampire. Difference was she was in love with Edward and he was with her and they were united, whereas Jordan wanted to bring in a baby, she has no connection with other that wanting to make josh happy. She should be talking to Josh about this not just lumping a baby on his lap and telling him it’s his.
Alec walked into the clearing then, looking dishevelled and subdued. I hated that I had done this to him. I was supposed to make everything better for him now that he was finally free of his masters. This was forcing his nature. Jordan trooped into the clearing behind him looking stubborn. Now I knew how I could read his mind but not hers, she’d blocked me and he’d made me unaware. Strange, that’s my gift.
“Why is Jordan here Alec?” I asked him.
“Because this problem we have is all her fault. Our home is supposed to be our refuge Faine and now thanks to her childish notions, I feel it’s become a prison once more. Faine I will do whatever you want me to do because I love you but I know the others will not be as willing as I am.” Jordan looked at me and hung her head but not before, I saw the determined look in her eyes. She wanted a baby and would move to the ends of the world to have one. It didn’t matter what we thought or how much it upset us. I was shocked. I never took her for a selfish person. I recoiled back from her. Alec stared at us, thinking that we were battling in our minds. It must be difficult for him to stand by and watch me being pulled apart.
“Jordan, there is a young girl named Lottie staying up at Paddy’s house. She is 16, pregnant and dying. She does not know she is dying but her blood smells wrong. You can have her baby once it’s born but then you’ll have to leave our home. I’ve given this a lot of thought and I think it’s very unfair of you to force us all into a situation for your selfish gain. Alec has said he will do what he can to make me happy but that’s unfair to him. He has finally gained his freedom and a chance for someone to love him in return and I don’t feel it’s fair to compromise him or anyone else in any way. I feel you want a baby and that’s totally fine, but once the baby is born you must take it and move away. I feel utterly gutted because I had a vision a while ago and saw you leaving and as much as it tears me apart, I have to let you go. It’s not fair to inflict this on anyone else, others may leave with you but this house has been my home for many years and it’s Alec’s now too. Did you ever stop to think how a human baby would affect the rest of us or did you just not care?” she glared at me and I knew she was hurt.
“What about when you said I wouldn’t have to move out?” she sneered at me.
“That was before I had a real chance to think about things away from everyone else’s thought and feelings.”
